happynew year

Ding, Dong, the new year begins
Hear the crowds raging din
oh, what is this, abeautiful night
see the city's bright lights!

How thin, and sharp, a ghostly white
slim and hooked, a sliver knife
cast out by those golden lights
Welcome to, your new life!

feeli the death of a year gone fast
far, far, into the past!
bring out the old, bring in the new
Nothing you know could ever be true!

Ding, Dong, the new year begins
Hear the party's raging din
Drink in these sights, make it fast
you never know when it is your last!

Dance in the pretty scene
where emrald's sharp and crystals gleam
drink in these sights, forget the past
everything you know went so fast!

Ding, Dong, the new year began
feel youreself born again
feel the death of a year gone past
you tried so hard to make this last!

Before christmas

Before the white,
Before the snow,
A symbol of joy to those young and ol'.

Before the cold,
Before the chill,
Little ones sliding down a glistening hill.

Before the wood,
Beneath the tree,
Children's hearts are filled with glee.

Before the fire,
Before the light,
Families are warm into the night.

Before the sleigh,
Before the bell,
Christmas is here near as one can tell.

Before the spirit,
Before hearts true,
Happy Holidays from me to you.

Smile =]

If at times you feel you want to cry.
And life seems such a trial.
Above the clouds there’s a bright blue sky
So make your tears a smile.

As you travel on life’s way
With its many ups and downs
Remember it’s quite true to say
One smile is worth a dozen frowns.

Among the worlds expensive things
A smile is very cheap
And when you give a smile away,
You get one back to keep.

Happiness comes at times to all
But sadness comes unbidden
And sometimes a few tears must fall
Among the laughter hidden.

So when friends have sadness on their face
And troubles round them piled
The world will seem a better place
And all because you smiled.

What has this world come to...

Why is the world falling to pieces beneath our feet?
Right now there are wars in distant countries, people dieing of starvation, parents beating their children to death, animal abuse, global warming, million year old glaciers melting, people are dieing, children are crying... And what do we do about it? We sit at our houses watching what is happening around the world on our TV's. Maybe having enough courage to say 'Wow, that doesn't look good'.
Will we ever learn?
Just because we were born into a society with money and power, we take over that fact and over run our lives with thinking that everyone must have this kind of life. Well, the fact is is that most people in the east die every day from disease and starvation, while we sit here happy that our crush just texted us on our new cell-phone.
Does that sound right to you?
Although, some of us are doing our part. As in 'adopting' children that need it and send them money every month for them, their families and community. We send over sweaters, hand knit ones, for the children so they don't die from the cold nights.
And during the wars, Canadian soldiers act as peace keepers; helping the innocent people who were dragged into whatever war it was.

Reality?

what is reality to me reality is like gravity a sort of barrier that keeps you from floating away too high but really reality is not even as real as gravity the barrier that is reality is something that the human mind invented as a sort of rulebook that tells us what we can and cant do as humans a good reason we have pushed through the ranks as the top specis is beacause we stay curios and make imaginations that through hard work and perhaps through many many years those silly fascinations become reality so maybe we can go on push through the limits that reality has set among us and break them remember through every generation rises new questions through new questions come new answers through new answers a new genration with new questions and the cycle continues as humans we must all belive that ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE cause really they are...

Snowflakes

The snow was purely white, it blinded me as the sun's rays reflected off the icy blanket, each of my footsteps sinking into the radiant sheet of ice. I was the only one walking through the freezing cold, each breath like clouds escaping from my lips. The streets were abandoned and each window glowed like an ember as the shadows from fire danced across the walls inside each window.
I sighed tilting my head upward toward the sky, the brightness was just as blinding as the snow on the ground. I walked further hearing the soft crunch of footsteps. As I walked snowflakes had begun to float down gently joining the collection on the ground. The gentle snow fall had soon become a raging snowstorm each flake flying into my face. The snowflakes started to sting my face, I squinted and trudged through the thick coldness.
The storm had came to a halt but the clouds overhead turned gray and the gentle snowfall continued. I walked and walked through the snow but stopped. A black snowflake floated gently onto the heap of snow in front of me. I picked it up holding it in my trembling bare hand. The snowflake looked like a tiny black crystal that was large enough to see the detailed design of the flake. I stared at it for a long time then looked up, more were coming.
I continued to walk as each black snowflake drifted through the air. The flakes had multiplied and more were coming down attaching to my coat.The flakes were now coming down in a rapid frenzy and they glued themselves to my clothes. The windows suddenly went black and the snowflakes started piling up on my back. My clothes became heavy and I started to worry, mounds of black snowflakes covered half my body spreading on my arms. I fell forward into the snow and I started to cry. My body then started to float up and I screamed and thrashed my arms but snowflakes filled my open mouth. They tasted sour as they filled my mouth but as I floated now miles away from rooftops I started to choke on the snowflakes. I coughed and coughed but then a feeling of relief washed over my body and I grew sleepy. My eyes slowly shut unwillingly and after that I was enveloped in complete darkness and absolute silence...

Nu Meriti..

"Daca ai`fi fost destept si mi`ai fi aratat iubire, acum erai intr`o alta situatie cu mine...Credeai ca ma vei oftica, cu cate`o panarama de'a ta =).Nu!,Tu Doar scadeai in fata mea "

Whisper on the Wind

A wishful twinkle
I saw through my eye
Joyful in the morning
But gone with a gentle sigh

I could see your life
Embraced in loving arms
A lullaby sung on the wind
Filling my heart with graceful charms

Dreams shrouded in shadow
Lost in teardrops of sorrow
A memory of what could be
To stay one day,
But gone tomorrow

A chance to be
In a loving secret yet for us to share
A truth to be sung someday
When you’re in my arms,
gentle heart beating there

Misery and its Mistaken Love

Atrophy is my soul
Apathy is my life
In place of my heart is a hole
Cut away with a knife

I hope that someday
You will dearly pay
My heart has burned gray
Ever since you walked away

You know that I will never heal
My bleeding heart feels so real
This chain-linked fence surrounds me
Misery won't let me be

I hope that someday
You will dearly pay
My heart has burned gray
Ever since you walked away

I can't escape your haunting words
Every time you smile, it just hurts
Your face is no longer my sunset
I hope like hell I do forget

I hope that someday
You will dearly pay
My heart has burned gray
Ever since you walked away

Only a knife will let me rest
I'm dying to plunge it in my chest
And though I shouldn't want to
I just cannot forget you

I hope that someday
You will dearly pay
My heart has burned gray
Ever since you walked away

Each cut, each day since you left
Your guilty, your heartless, your a theft
You stole my heart, while acting so kind
Your evil, your dead in my mind

I hope that someday
You will dearly pay
My heart has burned gray
Ever since you walked away

Atrophy is my soul
Apathy is my life
In place of my heart is a hole
Cut away with a knife

You will pay...
Ever since you walked away...

Regrete...

Fii fara regrete,doar fapte concrete.
Si dupa ce toate au trecut,dupa ce stii c`ai crescut,nu privi in urma!!!
Trecutul va fi tot acolo,viitorul conteaza.
Ps:Make love,not war.

Just friends...ok?

I never wanted to hurt you.I didn't know how you feel for .e, maybe I was selfish, but I didn't do this intentionally. I care a lot about you more than I can ever say. You are my special friend (: I don't know what I feel for you but I know I need you beside me. Maybe I love you unconsciously. I am happy to be friends and that I had known the truly you. You had a great influence in my life since I know you and you still have.After I met you I have changed. I grown wiser. You have opened my eyes and you helped me to see the world as it is.Better friends first and then we see what will happen.I care too much about you now for losing you because you have other feelings towards me, and I don't know how to say no. Part of me would disappear completely if you will hate me. Maybe in the future things will change, but now my heart wishes after another boy... please forgive me if I hurted you

My fault like always

You wishper "I hate you",
When I'm the one who should have said it to you,
But I didn't,
Even though your the one who got us into this,
Again...



I'll only say "I'm sorry",
When it's really you who should be,
But I take the blame,
Like always...



I can't believe you,
Even though this isn't the first time,
And probably not going to be the last,
It will go on,
Forever...



The pain you think you didn't cause,
Will stay with me,
Like so many of the other time's,
Until I die...



And when they say "Don't blame yourself it wasn't your fault",
At the funeral I'll know all to well,
It,
Perfectly,
Was,
All,
MY,
Fault for once...

сердечная симфония

The world isn't chaotic
But it also isn't peaceful
Love is Fun and Joyfull
But Destructive and Painful
We live life like a storybook tale
But not all life ends with a fail
People see others as equals
Monsters see others as lowers
When we think of safety
We think of love
We think of home
We think of happiness
But a haven can never be found
For if you can find one
Others shall find it as well
Life is just a orchestra
Playing a sad symphony
It's quiet and claming at first it starts
But becomes sinister and dark like a Ñawt
But in the end it all fades out
Into a short small silent part
Live life like a symphony
Don't change the tune
For changing your own tune
Will make it a mess.

The Same

You tell me that i have changed
to girl who you no longer know
that the girl that i used to be
is nothing but a mirage in your mind
that this girl before you
is not the one before
I'm still the same girl
I just do different things
Sure i skip school
Who doesn't?
I've done things here and there
all well
But for you to say that i have changed
And that you no longer know this girl
Is not for you to say
YOU said that you wanted to keep in contact
you didn't........
YOU said that you wanted to be friends again
doesn't seem like it...........
YOU said that you wanted me still in your life
you haven't made the effort.......
I'm still the same girl
she is just hidden away
Afraid to love again
Afraid to be hurt again
She stands before you and will always
But if you want her
You have to be the one to find her
Because you are the reseason she is hidding

I want summer back....

Imi amintesc de vara lui 2009 cand ne-am intalnit prima oara ... simteam ca te cunosc de o vesnicie cand am facut ayes contact ne-am innrosit amandoi si am ramas tacuti o vreme si am inceput sa radem de cat de ciudat ne purtam\..imi amintesc ziua in care mi-ai zis ca ma iubesti si ca n-ai simtit asta niciodata si ca sunt prima fata de care te-ai indragostit...in ziua aia eram cel mai fericit cuplu 8-> ne sunam, ieseam impreuna zilnic... nu ne mai saturam unul de altul.. plimbarile din parc, zilele in care mergeam cu tine in skate park sa te dai pe placa dar tu stateai din ce in ce mai mult langa mine pe banca , ma faceai sa rad, sa zambesc cand eram trista , imi dadeai hanoracul tau daca imi era frig... cum te enervai cand iti luam cap-ul de pe cap, dormeai linistit la poalele mele in parc, ascultam muzica, imi cantai din chitara , ma inspirai , imi dadeai idei pentru poeziile pe care le scriam, ne tineam de mana, ne sarutam la umbra unui copac, mergeam la concerte cantam seara dormeam noaptea tarziu uitandu-ne unul la altul..... mie dor de acele zile , mie dor de vara , mie dor de cum eram noi 2 daca as putea as da timpul inapoi doar ca sa mai traiesc o data acele clipe frumoase alaturi de tine pentru ca tu nu vei mai fii in viitorul meu si nici eu in al tau

Confused :-<....

Nu mai stiu ce sa simt nu mai stiu ce sa cred.. totul e ca o ceata groasa care ma invaluie...ce simt acum? nu mai stiu... vreau sa dau timpul inapoi sa nu fiu nevoita sa trec prin ce trec acum...te-ai schimbat, m-am shimbat amandoi stim asta desi nu vrem sa recunoastem e timpul sa lasam totul in urma sa trecem peste asta si sa incepem de la capat sa ne vedem fiecare de viata lui si sa ne intalnim din nou doar ca amici si von deveni prieteni dar nimic nu va mai fi intre noi..acea scanteie care a fost intre noi nu mai exista si nu va mai exista... acum e timpul sa ne luam ramas bun unul de la altul

Friendship...

de cateva zile incerc sa impac 2 prieteni care erau cei mai buni prieteni..dar se pare ca in ziua de azi daca faci un lucru bun acel lucru ti se intoarce inapoi dar nu bun ci rau.... am invatat ca oamenii se pot schimba in rau chiar daca nu vrem asta... acum totul e din vina mea ca au fost certati atata timp.. cand eu incercam in zadar sa-i impac sa fac cumva sa se inteleaga ca inainte dar a cui a fost vina?... a mea pentru ca am incercat sa-i impac...gata mi-am invatat lectia nu voi mai incerca sa ajut pentru ca totul se va intoarce impotriva mea si voi sfarsi prin a ma certa cu ei si sa urasc din ce in ce mai mult anturajul din care fac parte :-<

08.02.2010

nu-mi vine sa cred ca voi spune vreodata acest lucru dar ma bucur ca a inceput scoala ca ma plictiseam de statul acasa si de prostiile alor mei 8-| care devine din ce in ce mai prosteasca, absurda si enervanta. Am atatea de povestit Juliei =)) ce am mai patit in vacanta prin oras..acum am vazut ca am un orar de kkt care imi strica toate saptamanile din semestru... cele mai grele materii la inceput de saptamana X_X .
Vacanta pe care am avut-o nu mi s-a parut cine stei ce a fost prea scurta, prea friguroasa si nu prea simteam ca era vacanta...m-am imprietenit cu persoane noi :D si mi-am schimbat parerea in bine fata de unele persoane..dar si in rau pentru o veche prietena:( in fine lumea se schimba chiar daca vrei sau nu vrei....

Poetry

am obicei sa scriu versuri sau poezii... toate sunt in engleza pentru ca in romana nu prea le gasesc rime :


Waiting....
My shattered clock with twisted hands
screams melodies, and empty plans.
Of time unsung, and evil words,
are we this bad, and this unsure?

The crawing tick and inching tocks,
a horrible disaster; my eyes are locked.
I cannot look away,
and all my colors fade to grey

This ill fate has brought us here.
The memory of forgotten years.
We wate our time in indecision,
never apreciate what we are given.

A simple voice, the one I need,
is the evil thing of which I heed.
To see those eyes, those knowing eyes,
and that voice, my angel up high.

But those things won't come, they won't arrive,
They will never bring me alive.
All they give, all they gave,
is an empty wish, and a shallow grave

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Wondering

I stare out upon the open sea.
The refractions of the cumbersome orb do naught to
do injustice to my eyes.


The sea has its own beautiful monologue.
Echoing, echoing, through the floor and into me.
The soul of such a grievous mass comes to bear in a soliloquy.
Of tossed emotions, broken bottles.

How many bottles held a note?
From one to another, for whatever intimate reason
."I love you," "I don't," it doesn't matter.
It's gone anyway, now,


worn out by the tumultuous season.
Its blessed note has gone a-tatter.
It's as if the sea is as lonely as I,
bringing its pain to bear against distant lovers.

So that the sea could breath a shuddering sigh.
Knowing that its pain is felt by another.
Perhaps the sea just must wreck ships.
Perhaps the ocean can't come to grips.
Perhaps the ocean is a sea, composed of tears, just like me. ..

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YOU

I've suffered through so much.
I've been in pain all my life.
But it's all worth it when I see you.
I'd be prepared to throw it all away for you,
To give my life so you can live on.
But you would never know.
My shyness is the price...
For loving someone
Who would never love me back.
I could never tell you.
The way we fight,
The way you hate me...
That's why you could never know.
You are my inspiration,
You make me want to do good things.
But we aren't meant to be together.
Why can't I just see that?
I try to get over you
But I can't.
I love you too much,
But I hate you too.

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Red skies at night

Dark putrid veil no light in sight
Swirls of blood it’s hard to make the distinction
I see a fingerprint marking our extinction
Humanity the culprit
Painted by blood now tainted
Standing still as oil spills, we waited
Wanting to get away, awaiting city transit
The train did arrive

Breaking to a stop, it’s wheel ignited a spark
Unconcerned by the flame that arose from the stark
Seated and fastened the train is in drive
Inaction leading to a series of chemical reactions
Rustic amber earth is burning in embers
Mother earth no one will remember

No catalyst for change no satisfaction
I get off the train
The city seems dirty and gritty
There’s a hustle and bustle, people are giddy

I look at the sky once more to witness rain
Red skies at night pouring acid rain
Weeping willows clearly dying
An aerial fleet of birds no longer flying
Rain that cant be retained causes anguish in vain
Erosion and corrosion Path of decay forming sludge
Mother earth holding a grudge
Now we pay heed with close attention
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Why?

Why do I still cry?
Why do I still lie?
When you ask me, how I am?
I just want to run and hide
I've got to face the truth
There's no me and youWhy?
Why do I hold on to broken dreams?
Why?Why are you still everywhere I see?
Why?Why do I hold on to these memories?
I've got to set you free
From me
I'm not living in an alternate reality
I know we're overBut I,

I still think of you sometimes
Do you?
I analyze
Everything we went through
I'd change anything to bring the past
Back to lastWhy?
Why do I hold on to broken dreams?
Why?Why are you still everywhere I see?
Why?Why do I hold on to these memories?
I've got to set you free
From meI'm letting go
For the last time
Don't worry
This time,

I just might mean it
I know I can't change the past
This pain won't last
Why?Why do I hold on to broken dreams?
Why?Why are you still everywhere I see?
Why?Why do I hold on to these memories?
I've got to set you free

From me
I can't hold on to these memories
They're only killing me
I've got to set you free
So I can see
There's life beyond the past
This pain, it won't last

Pasiuni..

sa cant la chitara este una din pasiunile mele din pacate nu stiu sa cant la ea:( doar zdranganesc toata ziua dar abia astept sa invat sa cant la ea :X sunt atatea cantece care vreau sa le stiu sa le cant la chitara dar din pacate nu prea am timp :(


o alta pasiune este fotografiatul :D imi place sa privesc natura dar sa fac si multe poze... sunt inca incepatoare dar imi place sa fotografiez tot ce vad si apoi unele me modific in color splash cand o sa am timp o sa va arat cateva din lucrarile mele xD


iubesc muzica nu stiu ce m-as face fara ea.. acum nu mai am un gen anume ma rog nu-mi plac manelele sau restu.. de obicei cand ascult muzica ascult mai mult versurile deoarece de multe ori ma regasesc in ele si de multe ori muzica te reprezinta in ceea ce simti si gandesti

Vacanta...

hm...aveam multe planuri pentru vacanta asta cam scurta..dar din pacate majoritatea au fost date peste cap... dar azi pot zice ca a fost o zi destul de frumoasa adica... aleluia am iesit din casa ^:)^ daca mai stateam mult in casa muream acolo desi n-am stat prea mult a fost placut sa stai cu prietenii la un suc si de vorba face to face aflii lucruri pe care nu te asteptai unele de bine altele de rau dar totusi nu-mi vine sa cred ca spun asta dar vreau ca vacanta asta sa se termine ma plictisesc deja de ea :)) mai distractiv era la scoala sincer acuma.... dar mie lene sa ma mai plang acuma asa ca pe alta data XD

Me XD

Well what can i say about me...:|
there are a lot of things to know... You can call me KumaKo no need to know my real name..cause guess what?! you won't belive it .. I'm 15 but mentally much younger.I'm just a child with an endless innocence.Very forgiving person. Loves her friends.All of them. Rarely down to earth. Friendly and shy.I'm energetic and silly.I can be a bit selfish.And I can't say no to a request. Get to know me and you won't regret.I accept everybody for who they are. Just introduce yourself. I like to be different from everyone else. I won't try to impress you. I think it's cool to be uncool. I don't watch much Tv. I love making photos to the nature I could hug you forever. Music and friends are my life. want to know me better than add me: death_tears94@yahoo.com
I kinda like poetry... you think is strange? guess what i don't care XD! I like different genre of music but my favorite bands are: Eyes Set To Kill ,To Be Julliet's secret ,Skillet ,Jimmy Eat World ,Amy Can Fl, Green Day ,There For Tomorrow ,Automatic Love Letter ,Owl City ,Saliva ,Killerpilze ,Goodnight Nurse ,Rammstein ,Zebrahead ,Nickelback ,Good Charlotte ,Daniel The Photographer ,SOAD ,April Sixt, FM Static ,Secondhand Serenade ,He is We,Eleventyseven and more.. I also like Justin Bieber, Sean Kingston, A Fine Frenzy and Nikasaur
oh and here's a picture with me xD
http://i269.photobucket.com/albums/jj71/dark_as_hell/DSC00075-1.jpg